To write, and that is all

[dreaminghope]

In regards to the 3-Day Novel Contest I am entering this weekend.

There's a new document on my computer's desktop. It seems to have a pulse. I can hear it; I can feel its echo in my chest. I don't know if I'm going to able to sleep tonight, much less tomorrow night, because it is so loud.

The document whispers to me: Why are you doing this?

It is a good question. I don't know that my answers are good enough:

Because it is there to do.

Because I want to be able to say that I did it.

Because there's a teeny, tiny, itsy-bitsy chance that mine will be the best.

Perhaps I should create more noble reasons. I should have a story that must be told, a perspective that will change the world, or a muse that demands obedience.

To be a Writer*, I would be more tortured and driven, more romantic and artistic.

Really, I just write, but I think a little part of me wants to be a Writer, so I enter challenges and contests that let me play at it for awhile.

Are you ready for this?

I don't know how the story ends. I'm nervous, because I like to have a clear plan for everything, but I am trying to trust that I will figure out what to say by the time I am saying it.

Why are you doing this?

Because I've sent in the non-refundable $50 registration fee.

Because I told my Mom I was going to do it.

Because it is a good excuse to ignore the housework, eat junk food, and have Russ make me coffee.

Are you ready for this?

No, but that's OK. I don't have to be ready for everything. I can't be ready for everything. I'm a planner; this is the closest I've gotten to flying without a net.

Are you ready for this?

The closer it gets to the start of 12:01 AM Saturday, the less sure I am that I know what I'm doing or how I'm going to do it.

Why are you doing this?

The closer it gets to the start time, the less sure I am of why. But I am still sure that I want to do it.

One novel in three days.

I'm sure I will do it.

*With a deliberate Winnie-the-Pooh-like capital W.

Comments

[latelyontime.livejournal.com]

The three day novel sounds nvery interesting. I have done two nanos so far, actually completed the last one and it was fun. I wish I could register for the three day novel stunt but can't. The registration fee of USD50 is like my two weeks of food. can't afford that. Hope you have fun doing it. Keep us posted...even better, put up things as you write them and let us live it vicariously.

[breklor.livejournal.com]

I think whether you are the Best or not, whether it means you are a Writer or not, you should do it because you have never done it before! It will be a learning experience! You will be the envy of your friends! (Seriously; I will be all like "Duuuude, you one craaaazy-ass person, you coooool." I respec' that kinda stuff.)

[edableme.livejournal.com]

If your livejournal is any indication of your writing skill and style, you have more than

a teeny, tiny, itsy-bitsy chance that mine will be the best.

Good luck, Sunshine.

[awehla.livejournal.com]

Wow 3 days to write a novel, good luck!

Lisa
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[rythos42.livejournal.com]

I think you're very much insane, and I'm proud to be able to share at least this little part of your insanity. :D

[cinnamonsqueak.livejournal.com]

sweetheart.. please.. you are totally going to rock. Why? because you are creative, you write amazing stories, you don't sleep anyways, and hey! You deserve to eat junk food for 3 days!

:)

~hugs~ lots of luck!

I actually had a dream about you last night.. I came to visit you and you were so crazy from lack of sleep you didn't know who I was. Then you wandered around muttering to yourself carrying a pink piece of paper. Except your house had no stairs just ladders...odd.

[bob-lazar.livejournal.com]

Holy Crap! I had no idea that people actually started writing novels with an ending already in mind! Weird!

[gerimaple.livejournal.com]

good luck! *HUGS*

[magickpixie.livejournal.com]

Kick some serious literary ass, babes! Do it for "doing-it"'s sake. Not because it "can" be done, not because it "will" be done, do it because it NEEDS to be done.

And because the process of being creative is a direct connection to the Divine.

Be a Goddess this weekend!

[alfaspider.livejournal.com]

Wow wow wow!! Good luck!