Fear and loathing in my head

I just came back from mailing four cover letters/resumes. One to the closed captioning firm and three unsolicited ones to various companies. My favourite cover letter is the one I started: "Ah, another unsolicited resume."

I am so excited about the opportunity to start a new job in a new industry. I am so scared that no one will hire me.

I fear that I am sending my tender little resumes out into a world that will mock them.

I've never left a job this way before. Last time, there was a lot of warning and no hard feelings. This time, there will be annoyed, aggravated, stressed, pissed off and hurt people in the wake of my choice.

I must write 150 times: I need to take of me. I cannot live to please other people.